lay off the fear...

apparently what's going on at CTV is a big newsmaker across Canada. The other day the boss sent out a company-wide email that, to be short, said, 'the economy is in the tank. we're going to cut back, and also lay some people off.' The next day it was in the papers, including, for some reason, the Windsor Star, and was (of course) also a feature article on CBC.ca

it's certainly become the talk of the hallways around here. 'is it gonna be me? do you think you're safe? i heard pam in HR is a gonner! don't use facebook at work anymore, cause i heard they're getting rid of the first 100 people who log-in tomorrow morning!'

i've been thinking. the beauty of life is that you're never trapped. you really are never trapped. it's all about decision making, and priorities. we have a way of cornering ourselves mentally. we convince ourselves of the exact opposite. that it's impossible to do anything, or that there's never enough money, or time. or that, if only we were 5 years younger, than we might actually pursue an idea. i'm learning that you're either a person who lives an open-ended life (full of possibilities) or a closed-ended life (full of fear), but it isn't a matter of your circumstances or your scenario so much as it is a matter of your mindset.

what would i do if i lost my job? what would i do if i lost all my money? what would i do if i got sick?

i'm not interested in being a victim of my circumstances, no matter what they are. i'll decide what i'm going to be. work... work is unimportant. in that work is a means. the actual business of making television is not of great value. but there's so much that can be done in a day on top of the day's work. so much living, and relating. and learning. learning is what makes work incredible, and fun, and exciting. there's way too much to learn. it's fantastic.

i don't have kids. i don't have a mortgage. i know. but i don't believe in the 'you just wait.. you'll see...' way of thinking. i'm suspicious of people who say things like 'you just wait... you'll see...' i think, generally, what they're actually telling you is, 'i've resigned myself to this mindset. i'm not changing.' it says a lot about them, and little about you.

the great question is: 'what do you want to do?' i've been lucky enough to have a few people in my life who were up to asking me that question. that's a fantastic and exciting question. additionally, as a small, but noteworthy side-benefit, it makes 'the greatest financial crisis in the history of north america in the past 60 years' much less frightening.



yesterday Kar, Kris and I:
1. listened to Bing Crosby's christmas album
2. drank hot chocolate
3. watched Home Alone

it's time.

JB